I'm Going Home..!

Hello People..

I Totally Can't Believe I'm Finally Writing This Post.. I've Been Counting Minutes Not Only Days For This Day To Come.. Praying That Everything Goes Well And It's About Time For All The Prayers To Be Answered.. It's About Time To Go Back Home..!

After 2 Months & 2 Weeks From Being Away..

After 2 Months & 2 Weeks From Missing Mom, Family And Friends..

After 2 Months & 2 Weeks From Living A Completely Different Lifestyle..

After 2 Months & 2 Weeks From Being A Stranger At First And Fitting In Later..

After 2 Months & 2 Weeks Learning About Myself, My Limits, My Life And My Goals..

After 2 Months & 2 Weeks From Pain, Fear, Paitience And Strength..

I'm Finally Coming Back Home ( Inshallah )..

Wow I Really Cannot Describe How I Feel And Fit Those Feelings In Words Here.. I'm So Happy That Inshallah I'm Going Home.. And Yet I Still Can't Believe That This Journey Is About To End.. A Journey Of Self Discovering.. Been Through A Lot.. And Now All This Time We Spent Here In Ohio Is Going To Be Part Of Our Memories.. A Story To Tell.. I'm Glad I Lived It..

Inshallah I'll Be Home Soon In Suterday.. So Excited To See My Whole Family & Friends.. I Miss You All.. 3asani Man7rem :D

 

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Guess Who Just Turned 1 Year Old..?!

Hello There..

Back In " 25-12-2010 ''.. A Blog Called " BeRo0Q8 '' Was Born.. I Remember How I Was So In Love Reading Blogs And That Made Me Decided To Have One.. And I Finally Did..

 This Past Year Was One Of The Hardest Years I've Been Through For So Many Reasons.. " BeRo0Q8 " Was My Simple Getaway.. A Second World Were I Collide With My Own Thoughts And Own Writings..
 
I've Always Been Passionate For Writing But Through All These Years And Being Busy With College Made Me Step Away And Almost Forget About It.. But After Becoming A Blogger I Started To Get Back To What I Truely Love And To What I'm Truely Good At..!

And I Can Tell You I Think I'm Truely Blessed.. Cuz Through This Blog I Had The Chance To Get To Know Amazing People Who By Time Became Friends.. Now I'm More Updated With News.. Ideas.. Almost About Everything From My Fellow Bloggers.. And Most Importantly I Learned A Lot About Myself..

And I Also Made Friends With Other People Who Aren't Bloggers.. Really Thanks To All Of Ya.. It's A Bless To Just Have You Around..

BeRo0Q8's First Post Was Published On The Very Next Day And Was Called: '' Embrace Life '' : Here


And Since That Day My Blogging Journey Began.. And I'll Keep On Blogging For As Long As I Can..

Anyway.. I Want To Thank Everyone Who Stood By Me Through This Year.. Thanks To Old Friends And New Ones..


A Big Thank You For All The Readers Who Give Small Comments With Meaningful Space In My Heart.. And Also Thanks For All The Silent Readers.. You All Make My Blog Interesting.. Keep It Up All..
Going Through All Those Old Posts.. Made Me Realize What A Great Journey I Had With My Blog.. Looking Forward Another Great Journey Ahead To Come..

Number Of Posts: 170
Number Of Comments: 659
Total Pageviews: 25,421


Anyway I'll Leave Few Links Of My Favourite Posts.. Enjoy..

 
1. '' I Feel Good..! '' : Here
2. '' The Way To Perfection..! '' : Here
3. '' Just My Luck..! '' : Here
4. '' Good Bye Year 2010 '' : Here
5. '' Second Option Sucks..! '' : Here
6. '' Caught Up Inside Memories.. '' : Here
7. '' Brand New Beginning.. '' : Here
8. '' Last Moments.. '' : Here
9. '' After Breaking Down.. " : Here
10. '' If Only... '' : Here




11. '' I'm No Failure..! '' : Here
12. '' Stop Misjudging Me..!! '' : Here
13. '' Not Missing.. Just Doesn't Exist..!! '' Here
14. '' Can I Live With Him..?! '' : Here
15. '' How Much Are You Willing To Give..?!! '' : Here
16. '' You Can Run.. You Can Hide.. But You Can't Escape My Love..!! '' : Here
17. '' Picture In Her Wallet..! '' : Here
18. '' Girl In The Mirror... '' : Here
19. '' Talk To Yourself.. '' : Here
20. '' A Feeling I Once Had.. '' : Here




21. '' Me And My Shell..! '' : Here
22. '' Fix It While You Still Can..! '' : Here
23. '' Light A Candle.. '' : Here
24. '' It's Really Not Me..! '' : Here
25. '' Dream Big.. Expect Less..! '' : Here
26. '' Me Dealing with disappointment..! '' : Here
27. '' Behind The Big Question What If ...?! '' : Here
28. '' Confess Or Else...! '' : Here
29. '' My Life On Paper..! '' : Here
30. " She Struggles.. '' Here




31. '' Get Used To Change..! '' : Here
32. '' Rocks Along The Way..! '' Here
33. '' The Word " Understanding '' ...  : Here
34. '' Blind By Choice..! '' : Here
35. '' One Door Closed.. Another Opens '' : Here
36. '' Be Her/Him For A Minute..!! '' : Here
37. '' Social Butterfly Had Enough..!! '' : Here
38. '' What Kind Of A Friend Are You..?! '' : Here
39. '' What I Do When I Miss You..?!! '' : Here
40. '' Will I Be Missed..?! '' : Here
41. '' Through Bad Times.. '' : Here
42. '' What A Smile Can Do.. '' : Here
43. '' Home I Miss.. '' : Here
44. '' Never Realized That..?!!! '' : Here
45. " I Belong Here For Now..! '' : Here


Wow What A Long List.. I Know..

Ooh .. And Merry Christmas For Everyone Celebratimg Today..

And Happy 1st Year Birthday My Dear Blog " BeRo0Q8 '' ..

With All The Love My Heart Can Handle..
BeRo0


P.s: I Had To Delete The Old Post For Some Reason.. And I Wanna Say Thanks For Those Who Comment.. '' Izdiher , Butterflychick And S3od ..
 

Song Of The Day..

Hello There..


This Is How I Feel Now.. I So Miss And Need My Family & Friends..





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Through Bad Times..

Hello Again..

Have You Ever Thought About The Bad Times You've Been Through Before.. And How When It Happened You Felt Like Nothing Ever Could Get Worse Than This.. And It Just Won't Get Any Better..?!!

Think About It.. Think About How You Really Felt Back Then.. And Think About It Now.. What Is It Like..? How Do You Feel About It..?

Back Then You Were Down, Depressed And Couldn't Do Anything About It.. It Sure Took You Time To Get Used To It.. And A Lot Courage To Get It Through.. So Look At Yourself Now.. What Do You See..?

I'll Tell You What I See.. I See A Survivor..!! Yes You Sometimes Get Down.. But You Will Alwayss Get Up..

And Always Always Remember: " Things Get worse Before They Get Better..! ''

Al7mdallah 3ala Kel 7al..

Little Thoughts By Me..

My 30 Day Photo Challenge..!

Hello World..

Maybe You Read About @FroyoNation 's Challenge You Can Read It : Here 

Many Bloggers Are Doing It.. And It's Fun.. And What I Like More About It Is That  It Shows More About Who You Are..! That Encouraged Me To Do It.. And My 30 Days Photos Challenge All In One Day And Will Be All In One Post.. Let's See If I Can Make It Through...

Let's Start..!

Day 1: Self Portrait

It Was In Dubai In The Aquarium Loved This Fish It Looked Like Smilling :)

Day 2: What I Wore

I Wore " I <3 Kuwait " In Kuwait's National And Liberation Days (25-26 Feb 2011)

Day 3: Clouds

I Took This While I Was In The Car It Was Beautiful But To0 Bad Wasn't That Clear..

Day 4 : Favorite Color

Black Is My Fav. Color 

Day 5 : Someone I Love

My Nephew He Was Pretending Not Actually Crying :P 3ayaar !! 

Day 6 : Childhood Memory

This Is Mini Me In My First Birthday ( Don't Ever Ever Comment On The Dress :p !! )

Day 7 : Something New



I'm Keys Miniac :D Something In Them Attract Me.. And I Got This Necklace 2 Days Ago..

Day 8 : Technology

My Old BB :D 

Day 9 : Facless Self Portrait

 

My Graduation Photo :D But Faceless !!

Day 10 : Something I Made

I Always Draw This In My Books, I Wanted It To Be Part Of My Logo But Then I Changed My Mind..

Day 11 : Something Fun

Gifts Are Fun Aren't They..?!

Day 12 : Close Up

I Loved This Rose From A Bouquet My Sis Had..

Day 13 : From A Distance

" Burj Khalifa "

Day 14 : Flowers



This Is Mom's Bouquet For Mothers Day..

Day 15 : My Shoes

One Of My Fav. Shoes..

Day 16 : What I Ate

My Besite Surpised Me With It For My Birthday When We Were In Chocolate Bar..

Day 17 : On The Shelf

Don't Have A Shelf In My Room.. So I Thought Of Taking A Pic Of What's Hanging On My Mirror :p ( Graduated Last Year )

Day 18 : In My Bag

It's Not Always This Empty :p ( Kelsh Mo Mratbtha :P )..  But Got My Wallet.. My Gucci Guilty Perfume.. Mini Mirror.. Labello.. Lip Glose And Extra Gum :P

Day 19 : Where I Slept

Me And My Sis's Bed In The Hotel ..

Day 20 : What I Read

To Be Honest I'm Not A Vampire Fan.. But Thought Of Reading Something That Don't Interest Me.. It's Cool So Far.. But To Be Honest Still Didn't Finish Reading it..

Day 21 : Pretty Patterns

One More Thing I Love Stuffed Animals :D And This Is The First Thing That Came In My Mind When I Read Patterns Cuz I Didn't Know What Should I Put Here.. ;P

Day 22 : Trees

" Atlantis ''

Day 23 : Sunset

 

Sunset From Airplane View :P

Day 24 : A Smile

Me And Nephew Playing In The Car.. Love His Smile :** <33 ( Allaah y7af'9a )

Day 25 : Sunflare

Hamn Hni Tewahagt Madrait Sha7e6 :P .. It Was A Great Day With Mom :**

Day 26 : Something Old

And Old Small Quraan I Carry Always In My Bag..

Day 27 : After Dark

When We Were Landing Back To Kuwait :D

Day 28 : Daily Routine

My Shella You See Them Mentioned.. It's My Daily Routine To Talk To Them.. Love You Guys :*** <33

Day 29 : Purchased

I Love Lilys , Orchids But Tulips Are My Thing :$$ This Is A Mini Mirror.. Where Else You Can See A Tulip Ooh Yeah My Avatar :D

Day 30 : In Motion

Got This While We Were In The Car..

Done.. Al7mdalah This Prepared In 2 Days Hope You Know Me A Little More :D I Know Some Pics May Not Be Related But I Did My Best :D

P.s : ( They Say Everything We Have Tells A Story About Who We Are.. Hope Those Photos Made Good Impression :D )

To My Grandpa...

Hello There..

I Remember One Day ,Couple Weeks Ago We Took A Ride In Car With Mom.. And We Thought We Can Pass By Our Grandpa's Old House Were We Spend Almost Our Whole Childhood.. We Only Had To Look At The House From The Out Side.. Then Boom A Flash Back, It Was Enough To Bring Back So Much Memories.. Good Ones.. Bad Ones.. Doesn't Matter As Long As It Moments We Lived And Now We Share It As Our Growing Past.. Or A History Will Remains Not Only Between The Old House's Walls But In Our Hearts And Minds To0..

From Blurring Visions I Cannot Remember.. To Playing With Baribe Dolls.. From Running All Around Trying To Catch Each Other.. To Playing School And Become Teachers At A Very Early Age.. From Playing Some Of Our Old Games Such As " Alwan Shai6an , 6abeb , Kharoof Emsalsal .... Etc" .. To Hunting Ghosts In The Second Floor.. From Acting In Our Home Made Plays.. To The Trips Every Evening We Take To The Super Market.. From Our Naive Childish Talks To Becoming Teenagers.. Good Old Days..

Ooh About The Ghost Hunting Thing.. On One Of Our Zwara's Days It Was Noon.. Me And Two Of My Cousins Went Upstairs To Prepare A Room To Play In.. While Doing That I Was Hanging Something On The Door.. While I Heard Another Door Opens A Close Across The Hallway.. I Realized This Wasn't Something Normal Since That Room Has No Windows..!! But I Didn't Freaked Out.. I Told My  Other Cousin About It Then She Said :'' Ok We Need To Go Downstairs Right Now''... And We Did I Wouldn't Say We Were Running We Were Actually Calm.. But After Half An Hour We Wanted Our Stuff Back.. From Upstairs.. But We Didn't Want To Go Alone.. We Took All Our Family Kids With Us ( We Were The oldest At That Time Around 10-11 years old).. We Got Our Stuff But While We Were About To Finish.. We Said Why Not We Make Sure That Door Is Closed.. But No One Wanted To Do it.. So We Asked Our Youngest Cousin She Was Around 4 And Didn't Know What She Was There For.. And Asked Her To Close The Door ( OMG Mean Mean Us ).. It Went Like This: '' Sara, Please Close The Door.... ''. She Goes And Close The Door.. A Moment Of Silence We All Were Staring At That Door.. And She Closed It.. We Heared The Sound That Comes Out From The Doorknob When You Close Doors.. It's Closed.. We All Still Staring.. Out Of Sudden The Door Opened Without The Doorknob Being Used.. We Literally Freaked Out We ( The Oldest In The Group ) Screamed.. And The Rest Of The Kids Freaked Out Without Knowing What Was The Reason Behind Us Being Scared..!!!! And We All Ran Down Stairs.. Exept For Our Hero '' Sara '' Who Started Crying And Stood In Her Place.. Damn it.. Now Someone Has To Go Up And Get Her Back.. ( Yeah No One Wanted To.. ) It Was A Mission " Who's Up For It Guys..?!! '' No One.. Ok Plan B We looked At Her And Said: '' Sara Come Down.. '' But She Refused To And Conitnued Crying.... Back To Plan A.. No One Wants To Go.. So We Were Out Of Plans.. Untill Her Sis Volunteered To Pick Her Up..  Since Then It Was Sometimes Hard For Us To Go Upstairs.. But It Wasn't Hunted It Only Was Our Wild Wild Imagination :P ..

I Cannot Believe We Grew Up Fast.. Miss Those Old Days.. Some Of Us Are Mothers Now.. There Were Lots Of Other Mini Adventures.. But I'm Glad To Dedicate This Post To The Man Who Made Our Childhood Special.. A Man I Will Always Look Up To..  '' Grandpa "... We All Miss You.. I Miss The Time You Used To Tell Us Stories About The Sea And About Your Job.. I Miss The Time When You Yell At Us When We Mess Up The Rooms.. You Will Always Be The Strongest Man Who Wouldn't Let Us See His Weakness, His Pain And His Sorrow.. You Always Welcomed Us With A Not Big But Huge Smile.. You Were Always Known A Great Guy With The Kindest Heart.. Everyone Remembers You In Good Way Cuz You Left Behind An Honorable Reputation.. I'm Proud To Be You Grandaughter.. And Proud You Are My Grandfather.. May You Soul Rest In Peace ( Allah Yer7mek )..  I Don't Have Other Words To Write Really.. But You'll Always Be The First Name To Look For In Our Family Tree..

P.s: ( Grandpa: Every Kiss.. Every Hug And Every Touch Will Engraved By Your Name.. You Will Always Be Rememebered..! )

And I Thought This Song Will Match The Whole Idea Of This Post.....

 

Light A Candle..!

Hello World..!




Today's Title Was Inspired By Today's Free Of Electricity Day.. Since For Unknown Reasons The Power Went Off This Afternoon.. But It Didn't Take Long Till It Came Back..


To Be Honest It Was So Frustrating When That Happened At First We didn't Know If It Was Only Our House Or The Whole Neighbourhood.. I Kept Complaining About It.. Cuz It Was Hot.. But I Sat In My Room And My Sisters Came In.. And We Started Talking.. And Laughing.. Teasing Each Other.. Which Is Something We Always Do..But Not That Much Cuz Everyone Is Kinda Busy In Thier Own World..


But The I Realized The House Was So Quiet..! I Hear Nothing But Our Laughes.. Our Voices.. Our Own Presence.. Which Is Somthing I Couldn't Hear That Clearly If Electricity Was alive In Our House..!


Despite The Heat.. It Was Kinda Fun.. And Electricity Came Along After A Short Time.. Yeah Yeah I May Say You Should Try It Some Day.. Well To Be Honest DON'T..!! ( Only If You Had To..! :p )

The Ugly Part Came When The Electricity Went Down Again At 8pm As Far As I Remember.. And It Didn't Come Back Until 2 Am.. Imagine Real Darkness.. And Heat..We Had to Light Candles All Over Our Living Room And Sit Together.. And It Wasn't Only Our House.. Also Few Houses Around Us.. And Yes We Spend Some Quality Time With Mom And Dad.. And  We Also Brought Back Some Of Our Memories..

But That Fun Part Was Only At The First Two Hours.. Then We Couldn't Be That Much Patient..! And We Call Electricity Emergency They Told Us Some Of The Generators Went Down And They Are Fixing It.. Well I Hate That This Happend But Thank God.. And Thank Those People Who Work All This Time To Fix It..


Well .. " I Realized That No Matter How Our Lives Keep Changing Fast.. We May Face Some Interruptions.. And Some Interruptions Won't Hurt..! "


And I also Realized: " Even In The Toughest Darkest Times.. Having A Family Around Can Always Light Up You Life..! " ( al7mdallah )..




Last.....


P.s: ( When You Think You Life Can't Get Any Worse.. Trust Me It Can..! )

A Feeling I Once Had..

Hello..


I Was Going Through My Stuff.. And Found A Piece I Wrote Few Words In It..
The Amazing Part Was The Feelings Shared On That Piece  Of Paper Are The Same Feelings I Feel Now.. Though I Wrote It Few Years Ago..

" I Just Feel Bad About Myself..
  I Feel Like I'm Not Me Anymore..
 Or At Least Not The One I Used To Be..
 Maybe I Just Need Some Rest..
 So I Can Come Back And Do My Best..
 Cuz Deep Inside I Know I Can Accomplish..
 Anything I Want..
 But Sometimes You Need To Stop And Think..
 Then You May Realize What You Have..
 And What You Want To Have..
 But Will You Still Want What You Got..?!
 Or Will You Follow Your Dreams..?!
 But No Matter What You Choose..
 It's Already Been Written For You..!! "


Few Words By Me..




Random Words.. Express A Feeling I Once Had.. Maybe It's Not Bad.. But Finding This Paper Made Me Realize How I Love Writing Since I Was Young.. Hope I Don't Get Lazy Again And Stop..




P.s : ( Maybe We Experience Feelings At Some Point Of Our Lives.. And Then We Move On.. But There Will Come Another Time To Feel Them Again.. And This Only Means.. We Can Survive And We Can Forget..! )

It's Not Goodbye..!

This Song Is On My Mind Since Morning.. It's One Of My Favorite Songs..

If Only.........!!

There's Something About Me I'd Like To Write About..
I Write Stories.. Well Maybe Unfinished Stories ( Yet I Hope.. :p ) Cuz I'm Just That Lazy.. But Don't Worry It's All There In The Back Of Mind..


So While Writing.. I Imagine The Character And Live The Whole Story.. So While That I Wrote A Poem Let's Say Kinda Poem .. This Girl In My Story Wrote For Someone.. Well No Need for Details cuz I Might Become A Famous Writer ( Who Know..?!!  Jk  ;P),  Anyway That's Not My Point Before I Write The Poem.. I Just Realized That Expressing Ur Feelings Is A Good Thing..


Common.. What's The Use Of Keeping Them Inside.. Express Them Even If There's No One Who Will Listen.. Or No One Who Would Care.. Express Them Even Though It's To0 Late.. cuz holding Them In For Far along will Only hurt You.. and might hurt Others To0..




Anyway Let's Go To This Girl's Sad Little words.. Hope you Like Them:

" IF ONLY YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS YOU IN MY LIFE..
IF ONLY I KNOW YOU STILL CARE..!


IF ONLY YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES A DAY I THINK ABOUT YOU..
IF ONLY I KNOW AM I STILL ON YOUR MIND..?!


IF ONLY YOU KNOW HOW MUCH YOU HURT ME WHEN YOU LEFT..
IF ONLY I KNOW THE REASONS WHY YOU LEFT..!


IF ONLY YOU KNOW THE TEARS THAT FELL EACH TIME I READ YOUR MESSAGES..
IF ONLY I KNOW WHAT BETWEEN US WENT WRONG..?!


IF ONLY YOU KNEW HOW MUCH I LOVED YOU..
IF ONLY I KNOW IF YOU CARED ABOUT ME BEFORE..?!


IF ONLY I KNEW LOTS OF THINGS.. BUT NOW I ASK MYSELF:
IF ONLY I KNOW SHOULD I HOLD ON OR LET GO..?! "


DONE..


By Bero0.Q8


Hope you Like It..

P.s: ( My Imagination Is Wide As I Live It :D )

Caught Up Inside MeMories..!!

Well.. Nothing To Do..! But To0 Much To Think About..!! ;/


Thinking, Thinking, Thinking... Is Good Yet Sometimes Brings Back Memories.. Actually Great Ones.. But Kinda Felt Down.. Lots Of Memories Not Ready To Fade Yet.. Lots Of Faces Unable To Forget.. Lots Of Situations Couldn't Erase..


Laughs.. Tears.. Happiness And Sadness.. We All Been Through So Much In Our Lives.. Nothing Is New So Far..?! It's Just The Memory Of People Who Stepped In Our lives..And Touched It Somehow.. Remembering Them Hurts Only If They Are Not Around You Now..!


You Keep Wondering.. What Happened..?! Why Aren't They Around..?! Is It Me..?! Or Them..?! Do They Miss Me Just Like I Do..?! Did I Hurt Them..?! Do They Even Remember Me..?!


I Don't Know About You.. But Those Where My Questions To Myself..!! Cuz I Had Fun With Those People... And I Don't Only Miss Those Times.. I Miss Me At That Time.. Cuz I Believe They Affected My Life.. And Affected Us.. I Know I'm So Caught Inside Memories But Who Isn't..?!


So To Those Who've Been In My Life Before.. And Not Around Now.. " I Miss You Guys "..!! You Will Always Be Part Of Me.. Part Of My Life.. Part Of Who I Am..! Thanks For Everything.. Losing You Hurts.. But I'll Give Time Some Time.. To Ease The Pain.. I Wish You All Are Here With Me.. It's Just.. It's Out Of My Hands.. And I Can't Turn Back Time.. I Wish  Our Paths in Life Cross Back Again..! I Won't forget You ..!! </3


And To Those Who Will Step In My Life In The Present Time.. And In The future.. Be Sure You Will Touch My Life.. So Plz Make It A Nice Lovely Touch..! So You Can Leave Me One Or Lots Of Great Memories To Look For When Time Pass.. And So You Can Be Part Of Who I Am Today.. And Who I Will Be Tomorrow..!!




And Here's A Song.. That Does Make Me Remember Those People And Wonder...









PS: ( If It Wasn't For You I would Never Be Who I Am.. ! ;) )